No matter in what situation, I always am or feel like an outcast… it never changes. I feel like a last resort to everyone. This feeling sucks.
And I wanted you to know
That you’re the one
Designed for me
A distant stranger
That I will complete
:,) Sam Smith!
Feeling suffocated everyday because of my parents. Having no support in what I want to do and what I love to do sucks. I wish they could be proud of what I’m doing. Why can’t they just let me be happy and let me do what I want to do. I LOVE to dance, but I’m not going to make a career out of it. As for my future, I want to be involved in the design field but its frowned upon them. Each and everyday I feel suffocated and trapped inside this small cubicle. I can only be angry for so long before I burst. All I’m asking for is support, freedom, and trust. Support me doing the things I LOVE to do and the things I WANT to do for my future career. Freedom to let me dance late and do things. Trust as in not drinking and smoking. You can ask anyone that knows me that I don’t drink or smoke, I’m probably one of the few that doesnt drink or smoke. Yeah it can get tempting through peer pressure but I know what to do and what not to do. So trust me that I won’t make bad choices but do let me make mistakes because I can only learn from mistakes and move forward. I hope I can set free soon because I this cubicle is really suffocating me.
"Hit me my thesis is due in 12 hours and I haven’t started it"
"Hit me I have a final in an hour and I didn’t study"
"Hit me I’ve been on a 24 hour drinking binge and I’m invincible"
This year has definitely been a great year. Of course every year has its ups and downs but I feel like this year has changed me as a person for the better good. Starting off with finally getting my license to meeting a great group of friends, competing at my first dance competition at Breakthrough, We The Kings concert with Tifffany, performing at WOD with Structure1, auditioning for Press P.L.A.Y. and making it in as a trainee, performing at PD7 and meeting Fam Royale (members from Boogie & SGBM), Friendship Games 2013, and competing at Prelude for the first time and placed 3rd. Those are the highlights of this year. I also felt like I’ve changed as a person, the way I think, the way I view things, people, my perspective changed a bit. I allowed myself to look deeper than just on the surface, if that made any sense. This year I felt like I grew a bit more mature than I was the year before. Growing up, reality really does hit you and sooner or later you’re going to have to become the adult you once thought of being. This year really had its ups and downs but in the end it all made a huge impact. I cannot wait for whats in store for 2014, I can already feel and sense all of the new opportunities I will be able to challenge myself with. Can’t wait to begin this new year :)